In a perfect world my closest friend would not be right; we’d be talking right now, texting madly instead of ignoring each other.
In a perfect world I would not have had a fight with my friend before stumbling angerly off to sleep with you.
In a perfect world, I’d come out and actually say the words: I never knew you’d be the one I want and even if you’re just the flavour of the year I want to see where this leads…
In a perfect world, I’d admit that what I feel is more than mere adoration.
To settle is to feel OBLIGATED to be with someone. I had this epiphany today while driving home from work.
Let’s back up a little, why am I so concerned with this idea of settling, versus living? It’s simple a friend mentioned that to love me would be to settle; imagine my chagrin at this idea. Me?! I would be “settling”?!?
At first I was just pissed, angry if you will. Thankfully when I am angry I am usually fairly happy with hurting myself and the strained wrist and sprained ankle speaks for its self (never hike on a hot day, without enough water or a properly stocked first aid kit) - but as always, I digress.
Settling. What an ugly word. It’s very nature is to suggest there is something better but what you have is “okay” and because your self-esteem is lacking you’ll take what’s there. On that note, I should thank my friend for his decision to step away from “falling for” me, because I’d hate for him to feel stuck later.
I don’t see my friend as settling for quiet a few reasons the first of which: I am not obligated to adore him, but I do. I am not obligated to see him or spend time with him, but I do, because its the highlight of my day.
I settled for my Ex. I believed he was right when he made me feel financially bound to him, and so negative about myself that he was the best I could do. I felt obligated to stick with something that was detrimental to my physical and emotional health. Would I go back? God, no! Because never again will I settle.
The real question now is to decide whether to move past my friends comment or to move on and leave him sputtering and spitting in the dust of my departure.
People would tell me, ‘You’ll grow out of being a wild guy,’ and I’d just laugh. - Robert Downey Jr
Oh stay a Bad Guy, please?!
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